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I was never raised in a church so I never had nothing to unlearn but I had problems and I'm sure many were demonic problems as a child, but I didn't get saved until God came to me through Jesus Christ when my son was 2 1/2, I was 23. But like I said, because I was a babe in Christ I was just like a few members of the Corinthian church - so much practicing carnality (anger, rage, unforgiveness, mainly Pride, etc.) which came out in the form of sexual sin and and that's how I tried to silence my own demons. God later showed me, once that new bondage was so heavy on me and God's Mercy and Grace came into my heart and He spoke to me a Prayer to Pray to Him for Deliverance, he showed me that He had to let me see how many enemies were on my heart land.
 
But before that time, sexual sins never silenced the demons or their suggestions in my mind, I just kept taking in their suggestions down into my heart and then acting upon it eventually. I began smoking also.  
 
But, Jesus was always My Answer. I even sought that spiritual pride and sexual sin (bi-sexuality) for any justification but God's Word never gave me justification and God's Spirit would always bear witness through His Word. So 2 years later I could literally and spiritually feel the weight of those sin's I was engaged in while walking down the hall way to the bathroom one evening. That's when God spoke to me (I heard His Voice several times as a young girl,...) and told me to pray, "Pray that the only Spirit be in your spirit be The Holy Spirit." I told him by my mind, not by my voice, that I would do that after I go to the bathroom and when I get into bed. That night about 30 minutes later in bed, because I had forgotten about that prayer He gave me,...but about 30 minutes or an hour I really don't recall how long it was but it wasn't over an hour, I prayed while I was about to doze off and fall asleep. It was when I was totally relaxed and all my defenses of the day had faded away. And about 30 minutes later or so, after praying I was still very relaxed but I never dozed off,....I just stayed laying down and very still like how it is when your about to fully fall asleep, your very still. So about 30 minutes later I spiritually felt something, like a spirit, leave my back side. Days later God told me that it was an unclean spirit that is where all the sexual sinful influence and suggestions were coming from. That it had ground because I had given it an open door into my life through my Pride. That is only one thing that God has done for me in my life, I love to share what He does because I know it blesses others and mainly it tells the world that God is still the same God He has always been. He still heals lives. Even after they are Born-Again, like me.  
 
I do have some questions about your church, I realize it was 12 years ago,...that's not too long ago. 12 years to me, was yesterday. Even 16 years ago was yesterday to me when God delivered me from that unclean spirit. 

There's something we are not hearing from God when it comes to all these churches being taken over.

I wonder if others were allowed to at least, investigate spiritually the material before it would even be fed to the sheep in the churches? That, to me, is just being a good steward. I know many men have that same investigating spiritual gift in them, but what I have seen in 18 years of having been known by God that when this same gift is trying to be worked out in the church by women, men are quick to call them Jezebel's. Unless these same women who just stop their gifts (like this one - spiritual discernment of spirits - even the demonic spirits) and go with the flow then it's right to label them as a Jezebel - or any man for that matter.

Not that we're in trouble by God for leaving, but something doesn't line up, we are running away from wolves but then going out of the pasture to warn other sheep while the sheep who remain in are stolen. There's something wrong with that picture. For I see many good shepherd's like yourself and also like Milton who leave Godly Strongholds (like churches you can see - buildings etc.) not that they are building kingdom's here on earth with those buildings (of course),.....but soon it's the shepherd's who get run off. Milton use to say that new Godly shepherd's would only stay about 3 years or so before they get run off and then they go to another place to be hired to preach and teach God's Word and so eventually about 3 years time they get run off there as well. This is what mainly broke my x-Pastor's (Milton Green) heart. He really had a love for True Shepherd's, but he also knew that most shepherd's are not of the shepherd's of God's Word. And so it is with our days as well. I tell you his tapes are so anointed that what God had him speak on back in the 80's are so much speaking of our days as well, 20 years later.

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